The time has come to close this blog.

It's been a long time since I've been involved with OCF. A long time, and many faces have been relegated to distant memory (yet I don't mean that as an insult, since I do cherish my memories). People come and people go in a blur of motion that relegates itself to the background as the immediacy of my own life occupies the limelight. Times change, and this blog could probably do with a little bit of it as well.

Don't be mistaken, though. I'm not doing a new blog for new friends. I'm not trying to start a clean slate. I'm just moving on. Like the chapters of a book, its time I left this page.

To something hopefully more... elegant. With a dash of elan.

find it at teddelicious.blogspot.com . I've had a few updates already penned to familiarise myself with the whole interface first.

Also, the tech bloggie still lives at tedde-tech.blogspot.com, but no updates since July 2007. Expect that to be rectified soon.

Bidding all of you adieu, and for those that follow me to my new cyberlife, welcome back :)

In Faith, Hope and Love!

teDDe~! xoxo

Thought I'd do it in a separate post, so the faint-hearted among you would not have to suffer :)

Modelling portfolio is almost ready, its HAPPENING on Saturday! Wheee! Not happy though, my tummy hasn't disappeared as promised. Muscles have come back though, good to know, and all that running with the blokes from Hope is making contours appear in my legs I never thought I'd find.

Min's video is coming along.... limping along. Arghhh! I could tear my hair out in frustration. Two months ago it sounded so easy, I'd done a bit of video editing before, how hard could it be to slap in some pictures and videos? Well... hard enough, apparently! Especially when you know that this is the sort of thing that may be 'kept' for quite a while. I owe huge apologies to the cuzzies for going AWOL while trying to complete this project, partly it is the embarrassment of not being as technically minded as I thought I was, well, at least not in terms of making interactive menus!

Social times have changed... Zhijie, Annie and the others are off to clinics as of this week, meaning they will be notably absent from university, and notably lacking in energy from their 8am-6pm days. Its strange how times can totally throw friendships out the window, and there is a very real danger that the friendship is not flexible enough to adapt. I count myself lucky though, I'm still in good contact with them, if not rather more infrequent to do aforementioned factors, and every now and again we enjoy a sighting of each other (dang, sounds like whale watching!).

On the other hand, its been an awesome, amazing few weeks getting to know the peepitos at Hope better. Last year, when I joined because of Jing, I joined only for two reasons. 1) was Jing, and; 2) the strength of the student ministry. Following Jing's departure to Malaysia that left only one reason to stay on. At times I was tempted to go romping about to other churches and lifegroups, having gotten used to that kind of lifestyle, but a God-directed challenge saw me thrown back into the hubris of church life with Hope. And what a life! Absolutely, there is strength in unity that makes me DEPRESSED to admit I forgot. Many hands make light work... so true. And even as I avail myself to His will, I can already see Him blessing me, with new friends, new networks, new jobs, new opportunities, more lives that I can palpably sense changing around me. I've found people to be blonde and bimboey with, people to be serious with, people to do business with. People to run with, people to walk with, people to laugh with. People people people! They are like, social chocolate to me. I wonder if I'm being overfed? =)

Daddy Lim is here as well, on business. I'm beginning so see more and more of myself in him. Its both fascinating and scary. I need to keep reminding myself to keep all the good things and BANISH those habits, those mentalities which are not pleasing to God. I never thought Life would turn this way, but it has. I sometimes wish that him and mum would never have gotten divorced for the sake of having a textbook family, then I think to myself that Mum would never have learnt how to evangelise. Mum would never have learnt how to tell all those crying souls about the wonderful glory of God's kingdom. Mum would never have chaallenged herself to reach out and learnt new skill, rebuild her career. Dad would never have learnt his lessons - he'd spent a lifetime of being pampered and scared and was too narrowminded, and he finally got the slap that woke him up from his delusional reverie. Thank God. I think that Dorothy was the only one who wore the worst of it, who's life has been interminably and negatively affected by the scars of that period. I pray that God heals those wounds, before it is too late.

Stocks are performing pathetically on the stock market... they're like, 30% under original purchase price, now. Ouch! I've stopped looking at the market every day coz I don't have the cashflow to play with it anymore. Kinda a good thing, I guess. Really need a car - Dot's gone back to uni and now I have to play errand boy in bringing her home. Life is ramping up, despite the lack of clutter. I don't want to be young again, but sometimes I wish for the freedom that comes with being young.

teDDe~  

I'm back from cousin Lingy's Adelaide wedding. Back from my dreaded supplementary test. Resumed work. Resumed exercise. Life should be back to normal, yeah?

Nah.

The wedding was great. So many familiar, and some not-so-familiar faces. Faces that, given time I'll probably get to know much better. More of the generations from mummy' Lim's side are choosing to live in Australia. I remember, once again, what it's like to have cousins. Was sad, and in some ways I still am sad that Ling's hitched. I hope married life doesn't change her too much. Call me selfish, but I rather liked being fussed over by her and Min. Not that I'll ever know what I did to deserve it - I was a pretty spoilt and lazy child. Anyway, fat chance of me getting as much affection now... darn all this growing up :P

I sat the supplementary, am pretty sure I failed it. Life can be so cruel at times. However, I don't and can't regret what mark I will eventually end up with - if I fail, I will fail knowing I tried my best and that my study or score  would not have changed any other way. unless they allowed me more time to write. I don't know if it was nerves, but this is the first exam, let alone supplementary, that i have ever failed to complete. I do question that result. Alas, the progress of Time is inexorable and allows no chance for a good wallow in my own sorrow. There's lots of things to do. And I was looking for an extended holiday. Maybe this is God's (painful) way of telling me I need a rethink? =P

Going to apply for that TV/newspaper modelling job.  It's giving me incentive to exercise. Exercising actually feels really good; I don't know why people like it, apart from the sweat. It's not like we only have showers once a week, right? Sometimes I shut my eyes when I am exercising and i feel where I am boxing (with weights), or I listen to the distant pounding of my heart as I run through the steps, feeling a satisfying ache spread through my muscles. Squat, lunge forward, lift back slowly, feel the shoulderblades retracting... ahh. Was also talking to some other friends who have a resolution to lose weight, but these friends are shyshy about it. They don't want to tell anyone their goal, maybe in case they fail to meet it? I don't see the logic (but I can empathise with the underlying thought). Some people are fat, some people are thin. Some can help it, while others can't. Where's the shame in stating where you stand, and were you want to  stand? I guess, if I did not have that sort of mentality, life as a physiotherapist would be very stressful; seeing overweight, at risk patients in my clinic all day. God help them. And me.

I'd post a profile pic up of me pre-exercise, but I've already started to bulk on muscle and lose weight since the exam on Tuesday, so I'll have to do the before-and-after shot with one of the wedding pictures in Adelaide.

Charles said there might be a job for me with the Brisbane Strikers (soccer) during their coaching sessions, working as one of the sports trainers. I hope that pulls through. I've still got to tie up some loose ends with other centres, Baroona Road Physio and the one in City Clinic Toowoomba, for example. If I don't cut into final year physiotherapy, I'll probably do a stint out with one of them. Also, if I don't have physiotherapy this year, it might allow me to arrange for placments in England - I'd love that, to get some contacts and a network happening over there. Will see how things pan out.

Share market has been chaotic the last week or two. My shares fell heaps, and so to did my attitude. Vanessa was partly right. Not totally, though; I bought more shares when the dip was at its nadir, and in the last two days the profits look pretty decent. Mummy Lim says not to trade unless I need the money, but thats the whole point. I do. Not for the small, tiny things like bills or going out. But for things like my car and house. Every hundred counts. =)

I miss the good old days when study wasn't study because I found it relevant and interesting. I miss the times when I found it easy to listen because I convinced myself I didn't know anything. I miss the nights when I could sleep easy because I had no responsibilities, nothing to tie me down and tame me. Well, those days are gone.

There's only the future to step into, not the past.

teDDe~

Will post piccies of the wedding shortly...